” There’s been a change in me, A kind of moving on. Though what I used to be, I still depend upon. For now I realize, that good can come from bad. That may not make me wise, but oh it makes me glad… For now I love the world I see, No change of heart, a change in me.” (Beauty and the Beast; “A Change in Me”)
Oh 2018, you were filled with more mountains and valleys than I ever thought possible. The lowest of lows and the highest of highs. I’ve never been through such a transformative year in my entire life, truly. From travels, to graduating, to heartbreak, to new friends, to loved ones getting married, to health scares, to girls’ days, plus much more, this year definitely put me through the wringer. I am not going to lie, I don’t think I’ve ever been so glad to shed the layer of the previous year. I am so excited to step into 2019.
I guess I don’t need to get into details of what 2018 was for me. If you want to know how my heartbreak changed me, and all of that tea, swipe back to a few blog posts ago, and you can read the full on details, but the truth is, while that seemed to have taken up so much of my year, so much more was filled with love, and happiness, and true friendship. I managed to survive my final semester of college working 2 jobs, 1 internship, and being a full-time student. I graduated college in May with a degree in Human Development, and a minor in dance. I travelled back, again, to my mama’s home country, Japan, and got to meet my sweet little cousins, which was one of the biggest blessings ever. I took a trip to New York with my awesome brother, saw some amazing Broadway shows, and had meetings with people that are legends in the industry. I worked at a job that I love, alongside friends that have become family. I spent a million girls’ days with the ladies in my life that mean the world to me. Universal Studios, fall parties, beach days, Disney days, and Christmas parties, to name a few. My dear, dear friend got married to an amazing man, and I was so lucky to be a part of the wedding, as her bride tribe, and participate in all of the fun activities leading up to it. My best friend and I made more trips to Pressed Juicery than I will ever admit. We talked for hours and spent every possible moment of 2018 together. I got to make a music video, that gave me so much healing, with two of my besties and my brother. My sweet parents continued to show me what unconditional love and commitment look like. I got even closer to my second family, if that’s even possible. And I got to spend the holidays with my amazing family and then go to our family’s cabin in Lake Tahoe, with everyone. It snowed, that was definitely the cherry on top. And last but not least, I reestablished my relationship with the Lord and re-grounded myself in my faith.
Let me tell you, that list above sure outweighs some silly little heartbreak. 2018 tried me and tested me and took a lot out of me, but it also completely changed me as a person and how I perceive the world. I will always live for people and relationships and the human interactions around me. I don’t think there is anything greater than lifting those up around you and loving your family and friends with everything you’ve got. I believe everything happens for a reason and that God will always, always be faithful. I feel so strong as a woman, and as a person. Stronger than I’ve ever felt before. This year felt like a defining moment to making me the woman I will become. I am so excited for 2019, I really am. I just know it is going to be the best year ever. There is so so so much to look forward to in this life.
I pray that every single one of you is looking forward to a year of self love, genuine happiness, and family and friends that stick by your side no matter what. I hope that you will believe in the things you believe in, wholeheartedly. I challenge you to be a better person, whatever that might mean for you, and to find a way to help others around you. I ask that you love genuinely and be kind to every stranger you pass. I urge you to find your passions and go for them with everything inside of you and to never give up on the things that you’ve started. I implore you to choose happy every single day and count your blessings. And I beg you to wake up every day, and recite the things you’re thankful for. This life is so beautiful and I just know 2019 is going to be amazing. It is all about the mindset.
Wake up thankful and wake up happy, this is just the beginning.
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